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Shocked...Overwhelemed....Scared...Sad...Disbelief...Depressed...Overwhelmed...Tired...Loved...Relief, Committed...Assured. Let me tell you that when I said Monday was emotionally draining, it was. Those are all the emotions that we went through just on Monday. It was the start of what we would feel throughout the next 4 days.

In the past 4 days we packed our ENTIRE house. All 6 bedrooms, 3 1/2 bathrooms, 1 office, 1 family room, 1 front room, 1 kitchen, 1 dusty attic, and 1 cluttered garage. The playground is staying, I don't care how much it cost, we'll consider it an investment in the house! Then last night, in 2 hours, some great men and great friends helped us move our ENTIRE house into storage. To shut the door for 5 long months.

I can't explain to you in words what it feels like. We've never had to make life changing decisions so quickly and surely. But at the same time the answers have come quicker and with a firmness than ever before. When I said that we're going to take it one day, that's literally what we've had to do. With the end results still the same our life has been ever so changing.

At the end of the day Mike and I have crashed with exhaustion from filling our day with never ending packing. And the kids have crashed with exhaustion from a grandpa taking them to the park in the morning and friends letting them play at their houses in the afternoons. I know it's dramatic, but it feels like part of me is going away. The part of me that LOVES my house HERE, my friends
HERE, my ward HERE, my daugthers schoool HERE, the 9 1/2 years of marriage we've spent HERE. So I'll mourn for a little bit, get it over with and then move on.

Our truly inspired Bishop called us earlier in the week and told Mike he had a couple tickets for the Saturday morning dedication session at the temple. And Mike was right on when he told him we would love them, that would probably be the thing that keeps us from going crazy. So after a hectic week we woke up early this morning took the kids over to an awesome friends house, who was willing to take our kids at 8 in the morning. And went to the beautiful new temple sitting on the hill just 10 minutes from our house. Once we walked into the temple all the stresses we have went away.

Last night I couldn't tell you what we had for dinner, today we were able to take it in, awe at the beautiful lines, gorgeous chandeliers, flowing decorations from one room to the next. We got there the requested 30 minutes early and sat down in our seats and watched the slide show of this beautiful temple we were sitting in. The gleaming rooms, and intricately designed glass windows. And we listened to inspiring music by MoTab. The ceremony was perfect, the speakers were uplifting. We could definitely feel the spirit, that same spirit you feel when you do a temple session.
When Mike and I walked out we had a very quite ride home, you could tell the weight of the past week and the week to come was back but with a lighter burden. The decisions we've made so far were re-confirmed to us.

We've got another long week ahead that is bound to go by too fast. With so many things to do and not enough hours to do them, we'll have to take this week one day at a time too.

On another note, we're taking our blog private. Probably by the first week of September. I'm have mixed feelings, I like being able to share with anyone but it's time. So leave me your email address and I'll take it down and then delete them.